So just having a mundane day of uploading my pictures from Asia and it just occured to me...before I left on this trip, I was all set to do 2 months in asia, a year in sydney and then come back home. With the slight chance i'll catch NZ on the way back. Now it feels like I may never come home...
Okay let me rephrase that...so much has happened in the past 4 months, and yet somehow i feel like its just the beginning. Like the whole entirety of my trip planned actually isnt enough for me. I want more. I want to see more, i want to do more and i never want to come home with the feeling that I didnt do or see it all.
If i came home now, i know most my friends would assure me ive done more than anyone would of done in a lifetime, but somehow I wouldnt buy it. So thats why im gonna work my butt off at this job, to worki my way up, to stay the full year, to go see the sights of NZ and fiji...to work in NZ for a few months maybe, to fly over to the states and have a road trip with my american boy because you know what? That, for me is what lifes all about. Its not about the final picture, about what Ill eventually end up doing, where eventually ill end up settling down...its about the journey there. The ride inbetween. So fuck settling down for now...this may seem like an immature state of mind to be in for most people...but i like to see it as smugly enjoying the way of the world because Im as free as a bird. :)
So i start my job tomorrow, I am now an official employee of Make an Wish. In other words, i bug the crap out of people to sign up on the streets. Yep ive become the people i avoided like the plague originally. But you know what? Ive never been so excited to be apart of this. If i can do this job, and do it well, i could literally be changing peoples lives. So no matter how much abuse I get tomorrow, i just have to remember its all for a good cause.
Now all i need is a place to live! Wish me luck!
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