How is it November already? So I've been living in Sydney Australia for almost 8 months now.
And now...It's time for a change.
Truth be told Sian and I's original plan was to do 6 months in Sydney then 6 months in Melbourne. But well...Sian left and I got caught up too much in the Sydney lifestyle...
But this is now...my third week of unemployment. After working for 2evolve everythings sort of gone pear shaped. I was glad for the less stressful life, but the dread of finding another job and somewhere to live in Sydney again was daunting. Still I manage to walk into one job...a job which destroyed my soul...and after 8 days of working I got fired. Turns out selling penis medication just wasn't my calling in life.
But after that I suppose my confidence has been knocked a bit. So this time to sit and reflect on what to do has helped me heaps. Here I am in AUSTRALIA. This is a ONCE in a lifetime thing. I should be grabbing every moment possible! And yet for some reason I felt stuck, that Sydney has become too much of a routine for me. And the thought of coming home and somebody asking me "So...where did you go in Oz?" And for me to only say...well apart from travelling the east coast I mainly stayed in Sydney. Just doesnt cut it for me. Im the girl who has always wanted more in life. Even when Ive been given Planet Earth, I still want Pluto.
So I've decided to make the jump to Melbourne. Where the weather is shitter but the guys are hotter. Where every alleyway takes you to a world of graffitti and fine dining. Although I will always feel like Sydney is my home, lately I just found myself fed up. Im fed up of people leaving me. Im fed up of hearing everyone elses exciting stories of travelling and im left doing...well what? Nothing. There is nothing keeping me here in Sydney. I have no job...I have no great love affair...least not one I care to talk about anyway...and my friends, least my true friends...are leaving in the matter of weeks. I cant be the one left stuck here. I have to keep moving. And yes its bloody scary me doing this by myself. But Its incredible how much ive changed over the past 10 months, so this will be really good for me.
And its exciting to know what I want out of life when I get back home. I want to work in charity, I want to help people, I want to wake up and go to work knowing today I will have made some sort of difference. Thats what was missing from me for all those years, every day when i woke up going in work for retail and having a heavy heart, having people make you feel like your just not good enough to do anything and the thought of not being good enough to put an outfit on a mannequin...was heartbreaking. I couldnt go back to it, knowing what I know and feel now. My life wants so much more than that.
And its not just my career, i want MORE from my life...I want to live it! I want to start saving for a house, my little house, where each room will be decorated with things from my travels, a constant reminder of how amazing my journey has been. I want to DO things over the weekend. I want to explore europe, join races for charity, take up photography, get a dog, maybe even find a man who wants all the same things as me, but if i dont. Thats okay. As much as i enjoy the male attention Ive always been my happiest when ive been by myself....its such an invigorating feeling.
So my journey is almost over. I cannot wait for the last 4 months of my time in Australia. People think im insane to not do farming work and extend my visa, and maybe theyre right. But i know in my heart ive made the right choice. No matter where I am in the world, the thing that excites me the most is seeing my friends and family for the first time in about 18 months. To laugh with them every day. To be apart of their lives again. Thats what matters most to me.
So heres to the next chapter. Sydney has been such an amazing part of my life, and Im really sad to leave but I know its the right thing to do...
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