Suicide..

Now I've got to be very careful what I say in this, but at the same time I feel something needs to be said.

Recently, a lecturer at Southampton Solent commited suicide, although I did not know him, many friends did and I feel for their loss.

At the same time, almost a year ago a student from Southampton Solent, someone I didn't know too well but was very good friends with the people I love in my life, died the same way.

It just makes me feel sick to know that someone has so much suffering inside of them, they can't go on.

I too know what it's like to lose a loved one in such a way. You think you know someone, you work with them, see them almost every day, laugh with them, go out with them and yet one day there not there anymore.

Apart of me feels angry, one persons suffering then turns into their family, their work collegues and their friends suffering. Those are the ones that truely suffer, they have to go on without ever knowing if they could have done something to stop it. They have to live in the world where its now just that little bit darker.

And yet, a part of me feels a peace now, that their suffering is no more.

No matter how many people we lose in life, a best friend, a work collegue even a family member, I will never understand it. But I hope to learn from it, I hope that all people learn how lucky they are in life

See I have no career path, no luck in love, but I know I have my friends and family who love me.

I just wish everyone felt that way.